Monday, October 16, 2006

Homebound...

I decided to leave out September for studying so yeah, there goes the missing September archive. September month was not a pleasant one. Stress, acne problem, fatigue, brain drain and time constraints. The list went on further but I guess you know what followed after. But September is gone and past. October arrived faster than I had anticipated. Talk about October, I had always wanted to go to Germany during October. There is some kind of festival called Octoberfest where men and women, go out to have good jugs of beer and hearty meals. I would never walk away from good food where I can feast on one-of-a-kind delicacies at reasonable prices that is.

Currently, feeling bored because my mother is not around. She went overseas but would be back soon. Home alone with my brother, well not the first time this happens. What to do, what to do but to explore parts of Singapore when I'm free. Recently went to Vivocity to have some eye-washing and window shopping because I'm broke. It was like a war zone in there. People swarming in and out, long queues, traffic jams and it was just a matter of time before I'm finally feeling deprived of space and oxygen. Crowded places is fine but when it's overcrowded, I think I'll just pass out next time round. I did have some good eye-washing but it did not really impress me. I have seen better malls, larger ones, more glamourous ones and those which could awe me. One day is not enough to explore one such mall. Vivocity may look modern and stylish but I guess it won't be in my list of top shopping centres due to its narrow walkways on the upper floors.

November looms near and I think I'll be homebound soon. Unsure of exact date, I can only hope I'll not miss on PSL camp, that is if my juniors allow me to come. After all, they are the bosses now and me, just an ex-employee of the company. Purpose of coming down? To have fun...not really. To help out...maybe, if that is necessary. To mingle and socialize a bit with my juniors...could be one of the reason. To benefit something from the camp...possibly, I have definitely gained one or two things from previous camps. To keep me alive...exactly. At least there are things to do rather than rot being potato couch all day long or playing computer games till I get butt cramps. Do inform me if you know the dates alright?

But there are still duties to be done. I cannot just leave. I'll always have some unfinished business to attend to because it's a responsibility. I may have to wait for the right time to have my holiday. There are things I look forward in my trip, good food, cheap prices, some company that friends cannot offer, co-owning my cousin's dog, quality family and relatives time, learning how to drive if possible and watching dvds such as the epic Lord of The Rings trilogy, the Star Wars saga or the Matrix series. Quite common or some may say I'm outdated but hey, I love my old toys and I will continue using them when everyone else threw them away in the dumps due to forces of insatiable consumerism. Humans need to learn to keep their old toys in good conditions, who knows we may need them in the future. Most importantly, it saves money and reduces the amount of garbage we throw. Singapore's landfill will not be able to accomodate the rate we throw our garbage plus incinerating them will worsen the haze problem.

On a more serious note, my break away from Singapore will help me forget the unpleasant things I have been facing. Even if it is only temporary, at the very least I can be a happier person when I'm far away from the source of 'unpleasant things'. I may be able to find inner peace again when I'm around my family and relatives. I may be able to visit places that exist in my memories, those that may have been eroded by time. I may be refreshed from lethargy of JC life. I may be more relaxed and escape from the fast pace of change and modernization in Singapore. Soon enough, I'll be homebound...

Inspired by "Over My Head" by "The Fray".