Saturday, March 22, 2008

Life is waiting...


Inspirational and heartwarming. Life is waiting and I could not agree more. Just reflect back on your life and you will realize how much you have waited for things, for love, for independence, for growing up or things that matter to you most.

I guess I have placed much interest in such movies like this one. Recently, I rented a few DVDs which I have wanted to watch for like years ago but did not have the time (The Lakehouse, No Reservations and Kingdom of Heaven) ... and not forgetting my brother's recommendation, The Simpsons. Each one has their story to tell and they all met my expectations. For your information, I'm not really interested in watching action, thriller or horror movies, so yeah don't even invite me. Free tickets, sorry, I'll pass.

Felt like I want to visit Bali again, the hot sun during the day and the cool night breeze, the sands on the beach, the traditional Balinese delicacies, the picturesque places yet to be discovered... thinking about it just makes me feel so uplifted. Just need to wait for the right time...

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Dark, Cold Reality...


3 months past and it has been the most painful phase in my life thus far. I felt so down and helpless thinking about it already. Things didn't end there, the A level results further dampen my spirits to dust. I can now forget about getting into local universities and start to look elsewhere for opportunities. The saddest thing was not scoring well but it was the feeling that I have failed my parents, dashed their hopes and all. It was a feeling I brought upon myself and trying to get over that uneasy feeling took a lot of emotions out of me. I wept even though I promised myself not to if I did not perform well but I guess I wasn't strong enough...

I need time to heal the scars cardved in my heart.
I need a place to escape from this dark, cold reality.
I need love to accompany me through the rocky roads ahead.
I need melodies to drown my sorrows in.
I need comfort to ease the pain.
I need wisdom to overcome this setback.
All I need is God to take away my burdens and ambitions...

This is a difficult time for me so talking about it is not going to change anything or cheer me up. I have to plan for my next step, on how to move on from here and hopefully, starting afresh. It is perhaps the most likeable route to take and take it I shall.

This post is inspired by "Home" by Angela Aki.